July winds

Not sure if anyone still read my space. I'm feeling all sorts of way. July is almost ending, comes August, things will get tougher to some of us. May God send us all his blessings because only Him knows how much luck we need at this point. 

To be quite honest, nothing interesting is happening in my life. Maybe the lack of human interaction contributes to that, but I've been avoiding any in a while. Or maybe taking up gardening as my new hobby is considered interesting? 

July despite being mundane, it bears one good news to me. One I've waited for a while.  My student loan exemption is approved, so I don't need to pay any (except few thousands of the interest, charge fee etc). I worked so hard for this. I feel blessed that my final goal has been achieved. Now I can really move on from the bitterness A-level has put me through.

I know, you guys are tired of me bringing up this topic. AGAIN. But please know. This has impacted me in a way I can't explain. Carrying this regret and self-loathing, I finally can put my grudge to an end. It's the reason why I acted the way I was all these years. My sorrow, pain and regrets; I shall move on from them. Getting 1st class for my degree and being employed in one of the Big 4'S, I think I'm doing quite well, better than I imagine 1 year ago. 

Now is the time for me to set new goals. I don't have any intention to get married (not in 5-year time  ­čśů) because logically I'm not with anyone nor do I plan to be anytime soon. The focus is on myself and my family. I still have a long journey on self-discovery. 

Anyway, I took up a new hobby which is gardening. Maybe if I become so good at it, I can decide to expand my hobby and make something out of it. But the goal now is to have my vege gardens to be able to feed us fresh foods. So stoke just thinking about it.

Till next time. Love yall 





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