July winds

Not sure if anyone still read my space. I'm feeling all sorts of way. July is almost ending, comes August, things will get tougher to some of us. May God send us all his blessings because only Him knows how much luck we need at this point. 

To be quite honest, nothing interesting is happening in my life. Maybe the lack of human interaction contributes to that, but I've been avoiding any in a while. Or maybe taking up gardening as my new hobby is considered interesting? 

July despite being mundane, it bears one good news to me. One I've waited for a while.  My student loan exemption is approved, so I don't need to pay any (except few thousands of the interest, charge fee etc). I worked so hard for this. I feel blessed that my final goal has been achieved. Now I can really move on from the bitterness A-level has put me through.

I know, you guys are tired of me bringing up this topic. AGAIN. But please know. This has impacted me in a way I can't explain. Carrying this regret and self-loathing, I finally can put my grudge to an end. It's the reason why I acted the way I was all these years. My sorrow, pain and regrets; I shall move on from them. Getting 1st class for my degree and being employed in one of the Big 4'S, I think I'm doing quite well, better than I imagine 1 year ago. 

Now is the time for me to set new goals. I don't have any intention to get married (not in 5-year time  ­čśů) because logically I'm not with anyone nor do I plan to be anytime soon. The focus is on myself and my family. I still have a long journey on self-discovery. 

Anyway, I took up a new hobby which is gardening. Maybe if I become so good at it, I can decide to expand my hobby and make something out of it. But the goal now is to have my vege gardens to be able to feed us fresh foods. So stoke just thinking about it.

Till next time. Love yall 

Hello bye

Can't believe the last time I wrote something here was in October 2019.

Lil update:

I started working right after final exam (3 weeks or so after), so it's been around 6 months? Life as a working adult is going ok I guess. Figuring life and sorting out priorities have been quite a struggle (will always be). I don't know if I am doing well at work, but I would rate myself 65%. Work is challenging in a sense that I still don't know a lot of stuff, means I need to continuously study and study. Pursuing knowledge is a never ending journey, but in my field, it's a must or you're way behind your colleague. Entahlah, to be quite frank, I'm not sure how long I will stay in this firm. Sometimes I feel like I'm not doing well compared to others.

Here's to hoping that I will be better at work and continue to improve myself. I want to be better.

Aside from that, I'm really happy with what I have right now. Being financially independent feels amazing. I don't need to rely on my parents anymore and it's the other way now :) Praying that I will be showered with more rezeki so I can share more.

Anyway, I'm sure you're very much aware of thing that is going on in the world as of now. I hope you're doing well and ok. Please stay at home ?

Take care